5

When I was 5 and wild,
I hate bein treated like a child,
keep on hoping to be 27,
so it'll be easier to get even.
But Mom told me,

"be joyful N happy,

as you'll realise eventually,
this is the happiest time, you'll see"
...I thought she's bluffing, as it seemed to me,
It's the adult who're happy truly,

as they seemed to be free,
unlike the 5 years old me,
who's to get permission,
even just to pee.

I realised now after so long,
Mom's right and I was wrong.
Again!

Sacrifice

My sacrifice,
Never seem suffice,
After a while I realise,
Not to just see with my bare eyes,
And believe that dreams can be realised

3years

Three years, 

Of sweats and tears, 

Loneliness and fears, 

Yet i'm still here, it appears. 

As i haven't given up, 

I'm yet to fill the half-empty cup...

Black Holes

it's hard to live amidst negativity,
like a black hole sucking life outta me,
I prefer to think positively,
cos hatred's a bore, and confrontation's an enemy,
you might say i'm a pushover, but at least i'm happy,
...and that's one thing, you could never take away from me...

Often said

Often we say,
Nobody knows, 

no one'd understand,
So is there any way,
for d pain to be mend

Resolusiku...

mendamba sebuah resolusi,
perlu diiring dengan revolusi.
merangka sebuah revolusi,
perlu gigih, berani, berinovasi.

...Lantas kupohon padamu tuhan,
berikan aku segunung kegigihan,
Kekalkan padaku selangit keberanian,
Anugerahkanku ilham selautan.

Kerna sungguh aku mahu,
menjadi pendidik unggul nan jitu.
Walau masih di luar genggamku,
Belum berakhir citaku itu...

Malam

malam,
seakanku tenggelam,
kesunyian mencengkam,
sepiku terbungkam,
...kelam,
rasa nan tak terselam,
di sudut mendalam,
biarlah kupendam...

despair...
helplessness.
worried sick for them.
Yet, they don't seem to care...
But God, don't punish them,
...for they're young and naive.
And don't torment them,
bcos of my negligences,
as this might as well be,
the turning point...

it's been three years,
of laughters and tears.
I hope I've taught you enough,
But that'd be a plain bluff.
...I know I could've done better,
I'd say, to be human is to err.
So let's hope you'll study hard,
Give it your best shot and think smart.
Let's pray to God that u'll succeed,
Cos I know u all r deserving indeed...

For fun

easier said than done,
when u r x d 1 asked to run.
you can judge me any way u want,
n that'd make u a friend just 4 fun.

Life is...

we exist in its entity,
a cycle of unpredictables,
a moment that seems so tasty,
in a flash turns unpalatables,
today is a fresh fruit so juicy,
...yesterday's a rotten vegetables,
Life's no bowl of royal delicacy,
Just a pile of fortune and troubles...

Grateful for Thee

Am grateful eternally,
for the beings who love me,
They laugh whenever I joke, Generously,
They smile in my presence, Genuinely,
They make me feel 'un-alone' and happy,

They acknowledge even my smallest deed, appreciatively...

And for those reasons, hear this from me,
Even when life has ended, i'll 4ever love thee...

If

if
only I could really fix this,
I'll give up my life 4 their bliss,
if only I could actually fix that,
I'll give up my future 4 d 1 they shud've had,
...but I'm nothin but one of their saplings,
What I can do now is make them proud of my being...

Syawal 2010

Gema takbir meriah suasana,
mencuit gembira berpilin hiba,
Sebulan ujian ditempuh bermakna,
Menjadi pengukur taqwa si hamba.
Rindu dihati tidak bersua,
...Sempadan jarak memisdah kita,
Namun kini dihari bahagia,
Tulus ingatan ikhlas ditinta.
Syawal bertamu mengundang fitrah,
Barakah yg ada manfaatlah sebaiknya,
Ampunkan segala silap dan salah,
Termakan terminum halalkan adanya.

...

Sunday in Tongod at 5 am,
At around 8 then Sandakan I claim,
Last midnight to lcct I came,
Finally today i'm back home again.

Shop...

Shop till drop,
Spend till bend,
Splurge all urge,
With all the temptation,
I'll be out of moderation.

a not so good piece...

songs of the crickets,
enveloping this sleepy night,
but i'm still here with no regrets,
eventhough I'm all alone with no delight,
...cos at least I'm done with all the debts,
and I'll be free at least for a fortnight,
Tomorrow i'll be out of this green blankets,
On my way to catch my anticipated flights...

Who we are...

It's easy,
to forget who we are,
to lose sight of our useful repertoire,
cos amidst the neverending piles of papers,
and endless noises of empty-headed "leaders",
...We let ourselves sink down and drowned,
We fell into routines on baseless ground,
Let's wake up and shine up to expectation,
Before we end up killing the future generation,
Let's prove to the world that this is indeed,
an honourable profession...

Ramadhan 2 Zaman

Kurenungi,
Hari-hari dalam Ramadhan yang berlalu,
Sudah kini kuberada dipenghujungmu,
Rasa hiba menerjah, bertamu di kalbu,
Kubandingkan,
...Beza antara Ramadhan dua zaman,
Bulan yang sama, natijahnya berlainan,
Ramadhan dulu cemerlang gemilangan,
Mukminin berjasa di awal zaman,
Ramadhan kini malang dipinggirkan,
Muslimin berdosa di akhir zaman.